Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Hujan di Semporna


hujan di Semporna. ah tidaklah seseronok mana. udara tetap terasa panas. tidak sejuk langsung! berhaba sahaja dimana2. bukan macam di kundasang. untunglah kau Iwan sebab di sana sejuk. mudah2an kau dapat laki orang sana supaya boleh terus menetap di Kundasang yang sejuk itu.

hujanlah! hujanlah lebat mana pun! habanya tetap panas! lama2 hati pun panas! mesti sejuk kalau pasang air-cond. tp aku tidak lama di sini. insyaALLAH, bulan 6 ni kalau ada rezeki, pindah la. bak sirih pulang ke gagang... ^___^



pemandangan daripada bilik aku. jalan tar saja yg basah. hujan lah sangat! tapi apa pun, aku tetap bersyukur sebab hujan ini adalah rahmat dari ALLAH. alhamdulillah....

Monday, April 12, 2010

... it's what I feel

lately, i have no strength to go to work, to teach, to do anything... i've been thinking about the transfer. i dunno whether i have a luck or not. i have to try my best dis time. those days, i was too confident that i will be posted in my hometown. i was not too shocked when i received the posting letter because i knew about it beforehand. thanks to shima's dad! at least i was mentally prepared that time.but now, when the same thing happen again, i just dunno what to think and how to feel. i am so afraid that i will get the same result.

last-last week, when i went to Tawau with Stella, Natta, and Rohaya, i met Felly my senior. she said that dia pun apply pindah and hope that she could transfer back to KK. i was also hoping about the same thing. being here  to me is not as challenging as in KK. not to say that i am willing to be burdened by all the tasks and responsibilities like teachers in KK but at least they are open to any opportunities, experiences as well as knowledge. 

kalau pun tidak ada rezeki, i believe that next time i will be transfered too... but i just dunno when... it's all depend on the efforts that we put, lepas tu tawakal.. the most important thing is we dont forget to pray to ALLAH. HE listens to us. insyaALLAH...

*iklan*** eh, menyampah plak tgk Diary AF8 ni... pindah cenel jap.... okeh, Disney Channel should be okay!***

where was i? oh... the posting thingy! everyone who reads this entry, i hope you pray for me so that i can get what i wish for... thank you. ^____^

and now i was not too busy since i am here, hehe.. i haveto prepare for the engagement. to be precise, we haven't set the exact date. what we know is, we will do it after my sister's wedding. which is after 06/06/10. so the week after this week is supposed to be our engagement day... it's somewhere around that la...

the baju tunang is bought by my future. it's a green outfit. my mom said that it was a nice choice. thanks to my future. you always know what i want. for baju nikah, i choose cream colour. the pattern was okay. but it would be nice if the lace can cover the whole body. i will think about that.

i need to go back to my hometown for fitting session. when? i dunno when. ahh, i shud get my nap now. that's all for now... thanks for reading! daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Sunday, April 11, 2010

CINTA & KAWAN

Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung... Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerana CINTA itu buta.. Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerana... KAWAN akan buat apa sahaja demi CINTA !! Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang... Kenapa?? Kerana... CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apatah lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu.. Kenapa?? Kerana... KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...kan ?? so, hargai lah KAWAN kita selagi kita terasa dia BERERTI....Walau kita punya couple, teman still paling setia. Walau kita punya harta banyak, teman still paling berharga......

Doa


Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan…
Dia milikku tercipta buatku…
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku…
Titipkanlah kebahagiaan antara kami…
Agar kemesraan itu abadi…

Ya Allah…
Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengasihani…
Seringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini…
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi…
Maka jodohkanlah kami…

Tetapi Ya Allah…
Seandainya telah Engkau takdirkan
Dia bukan milikku…
Bawalah dia jauh daripada pandanganku…
Luputkanlah dia dari ingatanku…
Dan periharalah aku dari kekecewaan…

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti…
Berikanlah aku kekuatan…
Menolak bayangannya jauh ke dada langit…
Hilang bersama senja yang merah…
Agarku sentiasa tenang…
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya…

Ya Allah yang tercinta…
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdir-Mu…

Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan
Adalah yang terbaik untukku…
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui…
Segala yang terbaik buat hamba-Mu ini…

Ya Allah…
Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemeliharaku…
Di dunia dan akhirat…
Dengarkanlah rintihan daripada hamba-Mu yang daif ini…
Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian…
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat…
Menjuruskan aku ke arah kamaksiatan dan kemungkaran…
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman…
Agar aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup…
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai…
Dan kurniakanlah kepadaku keturunan yang soleh dan solehah…

Ya Allah…
Berikanlah kami kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat…
Dan periharalah kami dari azab api Neraka…

Amin…amin…Ya rabbal ‘aalamin.

Noktah.Cinta



Ternyata semua bicaraku
Tersimpan di dalam hatiku
Ternyata semua soalanku
Tak pernah kau fikir di fikiran

Ternyata kau masih
Mencari kepastian dalam cinta
Dan disini masih
Menanti jawapannya

Tuhan tolong nyatakanlah
Padanya tentang cinta
Adakah masih diriku di perlukan

Tuhan tunjukkan padanya
Tentang apa yang ku fikirkan
Adakah cinta ini
Perlu untuk dirinya

Berbicara tentang cinta kita
Masih tiada noktah penghujungnya
Berbicara tentang perasaan
Simpan saja semua itu

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Minggu ini

minggu ini... nda byk perkara berlaku..

isnin - CRK

selasa - 'serang PPD'

rabu - bertugas unit ko-kurikulum KRS. ini yg nda bestnya sbb i know NOTHING about marching! haha.. pasal tu aku diam saja... haha.. menyesal dulu time aku sekolah2 aku melawan cakap cikgu aku nda mau kawad. now dah susah!

khamis - went to principal's office to hand-in the borang sulit SPP. buli2 dia cakap, "apa ni Zura? kalau urusan pindah, saya nda mau kasi pindah kamu!" and i was like_____________????

jumaat - esok sambutan maulidur rasul peringkat sekolah. agak lembap la sekolah aku nih... orang suda sambut weeks ago... duii kesian.. ikut saja la..

next week??? gonna be hectic because of English Festival! haha.. english festival la sangatt! let see how it goes!


benciiiiiii kawad!!!!
+____+

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

hoyeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

baru ja tadi aku p PPD and now dah bleh apply e-tukar... syukur2... alhamdullillahhh... segala puji kepadaMU YA ALLAH!!!


Oh! What a wonderful day!

oh-okayyy! this entry is not going to resemble the title. i just dunno what to put as a title.. haha.. today, as i finished a class (the only class that i have on Tuesday) at 8.30 a.m., i went to the PK1's office to ask for his permission to go to PPD.

so, when i arrived at PPD, i went to see this fellow who is in-charge with the penempatan guru. the person who i supposed to meet was not there, as he went to SK (i cant remember the name) for pencerapan! heee... so this man yg mempunyai rambut yg amat amat amat keras (which i think sekali pakai habis satu tube gel rambut) that i can apply thru offline (guna borang manually)... naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh! you got it??? so, mana2 guru yg bijak pandai yg tetap membuat pernyataan yg hanya boleh menggunakan online saja, naahh, padan muka kau! such an ______!!!

oh.. err, terover pulak! geram bah! i just want to try my luck and i dont really mind if i can transfer or not... maybe not this time but who knows it will be end of this year?

as i said to that Encik, "ini peraturan kita manusia sendiri buat ba.. peraturan manusia saja ba ini.. bulih juga tu kita sama2 manusia memindanya" gulp!!! itu pegawai telan airliur. dan dia menjawab, "ya cikgu, klu tiada peraturan, kucar-kacir la dunia nih.. suka2 hati saja org mau keluar masuk!" then i was like.... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! silakak kau! hahaha.. 1-1! seri!

tiapa lahh... i just want to try... kalau tia dapat, sedih la aku.. haha.. tipu la kalau nda sedih.. ok la, aku nak sambung semak buku latihan budak2... daaaa~

Monday, April 05, 2010

First & Last Chance

sesungguhnya ALLAH Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengasihani dan Maha Pengampun kepada hamba-hambaNYA.

syukur alhamdulillah... segala puji dan syukur ke atas mu YA ALLAH!

apabila seseorang manusia diberi peluang, tidak kiralah peluang itu itu adalah peluang pertama, peluang yang datang berkali2 ataupun peluang itu adalah yg terakhir, haruslah kita bersyukur... ada hikmah disebalik apa yg berlaku...

tiada yg lebih menggembirakan hati setiap insan apabila mereka diberi satu sahaja lagi peluang untuk apa jua keadaan sama ada ianya membawa kebaikan atau keburukan...

tidak dapat dibayangkan jika peluang itu tidak diberi. apa yg akan diperkatakan oleh mereka nanti? apa yg mereka fikirkan? tp apa yg mereka tahu mengenainya? tiada siapa tahu, kecuali orang yg tahu...

dan apabila peluang sudah ada di depan mata, go and grab it! sesungguhnya it's a first and last chance... for everyone!

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Pening Oh Pening!

lately ni banyak saja masalah yg timbul dalam hidup! aarrrghhhh! rasanya baru semalam i wassss so extremely happy! then today, i am soooooooooo ________________ (indescribable)! macam lagu Lenka - Trouble is a Friend plak.. haha! we as a human being, we cannot run from it! T____T help me!!!

i hope everything will be fine.. every single thing will be back to normal... smile.. smile.. i must keep on smiling no matter whatt... no matter how i feel right now... only ALLAH knows! sighhhhh....


Thursday, April 01, 2010

stupid.stupid.stupid

stupid. idiot! ahh bencinyaa! today, semua guru boleh apply e-gtukar (permohonan guru secara online). and i was hoping and dreaming i can apply it too... but when i key in all my data, this is the result...



bodohhh!!! bencinyaaa.... i asked some people about this. i asked the school teachers. some of the bijak pandai said that i cant apply because i belum SPP! WTF!!! but before that i already checkec my data with the data teacher, and it is all correct! the IC no, the gaji no. everything!!!! but whyyy???? then i called my sister, and she said, tia payah pun SPP bleh apply! then whattt??? bingung2!! she said that the people in charge didn't update my data to PPD. then i call JPN sabah! JPN sabah said that i have to inform PPD about this. then i called my beloved PPD, and it is so f***** a**, they didn's pick up the phone! eh, punya la main buduh.. huhu.. i just want to try! i just want to register. dapat nda dapat, belakang cerita! yg penting aku puas hati aku apply walaupun nda dapat!

aaarrrgghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! buduhh.. paluii.. paluii.. paluii...

ini lagi satu bodoh!! dah dekat setahun ambik induksi, result masih xkuar2.. when i contacted the person in charge, dia cakap 2 orang gagal! tp tiatau pula siapa.. then how do u know abt it in the first place?? bengong betol!!!!


bila la mau sah jawatan klu ni macam.. nasib baik result BTN dah keluar... sighhh...